The Darkness

Happiness seems so easy. What am I doing wrong? People look so fulfilled. I've felt like this for far too long. It seems like everyone is on the right track but I’m going off-road. They are speeding right past while my speed is slowed. I feel distant like a ghost. No one has noticed even when I need them the most. Not much they can do now, I’m about ready to just give in. I’m just wondering where you have been? I got nothing holding me back, no one doing a thing. I’m getting really sick of this awful feeling.

All of life’s problems would vanish. The stress would go away. Everything would leave. I can only hope it’s someday. Is it even worth it to go on? I don’t know what to do anymore. It’s getting darker, the curtain’s been drawn.

I’m slowly fading away, no one’s here to see me go. Did I want it this way? The answer is definitely no. Nothing I can do now, but suffer till the end. I wish I could continue, I wish I could pretend. I've got nothing to lose, nothing to gain. What does that leave me with? Nothing, I’m going insane. I needed someone to hold me back, refrain me from doing something totally crazy.

The darkness is almost here, I can sense it. It’s like nothing I've ever felt before, it’s immense. Its presence is unreal. But it’s something I have to deal with. I can feel it coming closer and I’m trying to fight. I’m already too weak, I think I see the light. It’s too bright. Time to say goodnight. I wish you were here to tell me it’s all right.  Despite everything I’m at peace. Nothing else to do now but to cease existence. If only you were persistent. There wouldn’t be this distance.